May 3, 2012 @ 9:15 pm
I guess the poetic thing to write now would be: beginnings.
As cliché as it is, it’s true. Dang it.
OK so The War College as I have known it is coming to a rapid end, that must mean something is about to begin, right?
For me my beginnings are a summer position with YouthWorks, and Regent College in September.
I knew that this end was coming when it began in September, actually I knew back in February when I applied, yet it is surreal, can this really be coming to an end? No, we just began!
Does anyone know what I am talking about?
It is this odd thing we call time.
Time fascinates me. I often will say, as I did 4 months before The War College, “remember this moment (I was sitting in a van with my family) in 4 months I will have started The War College, remember me saying this, soon this will be just a memory, and we will be able to think back to this time, remember how nervous I am right now, soon I will be living in the Downtown Eastside and I will be able to remember how nervous I was…”
I remember that moment, I remember how nervous I was, it seems like it was yesterday, but it was almost a year ago. Now I can think of all that God has done in my life from that moment till now.
I have been changed, as often happens in this process we call life.
Specifically The War College, 614 and living in the Downtown Eastside has changed me. I cannot even imagine if I had chosen to follow my plan, instead of God’s (He was the one who suggested The War College to me), oh man oh man I would have missed out! But maybe it doesn’t work that way, maybe I would have been sitting in a different Starbucks writing on a different blog, having a different memory, and different ends and beginnings.
Maybe. But I am not, I am in this reality, and I am thankful for it, thank you Jesus for bringing me into this place (physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually).
I know that it can be quite the ordeal trying to make decisions of what to do with one’s life, you know that whole “what is God’s will for my life?” I want to pass on some great advice that my Mom gave me over a year ago when I was asking that very question about The War College, she said:
Good question Mom! Yes, why not? As she continued to say “you are young, single, have no kids, no debt, nothing is holding you back.” Now I know these statements are not true for everyone, but I think a lot of us could try just asking ourselves “why not?” rather than “what is the will of God for my life?” because loving God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and loving your neighbour as yourself is God’s will for your life. OK before you start composing a frustrated reply, I know that this is a very simplified explanation, and there are times when God has something specific in mind, but I do think we over complicate things. It is not like God’s will for your life is a riddle, and He is laughing at you as you try and figure it out. If there is one way that is far better than another I believe He will make it clear to you. Remember ultimately it is about loving Him and others with everything you’ve got, and you can do that in a multitude of different ways, so stop stressing, and just start loving and trusting God, the details will be worked out by your Father as you stick close to Him.
Now that I have successfully rambled, I will bring this blog
to a close.
“Remember this moment Maria, as you sit in Starbucks writing one of your last blogs for The War College and you are preparing for the summer with YouthWorks (which you would not be doing if it weren’t for Jonathan, The War College Principal). It is crazy to think how one thing leads to another and that leads to another. Remember this moment on August 07 ’12 when it is finished, remember how you feel overwhelmed with all that is ahead of your for the summer, soon you will be able to look back on this very moment and see how God carried you every step of the way, and soon after that you will be at The War College graduation, and you will be able to remember this moment, and all the moments from before, remember back to when you were in the kitchen with your mom and she asked: